Saturday, November 15, 2008
i just woke up not long ago. i didn't sleep for 2 days alr nd just now i finally can ve 6hrs of proper sleep on my bed. ima still feeling tired now. i don't know y. probably because i still didn't sleep enuff? but dear's working now nd i don't feel like sleeping. i want t wait for him finish work. (: just now he called me but i never answer nd i called him back. he sounded very sian nd tired. i don't know y. he said that he is feeling very warm. after chatting for awhile nd he went back t work. i was supposed t work 7-7 ystd nd i went home at 3.30pm instead because of my eyes nd partly because i was really tired. even if i stay there i think i can't help much also because there's really nth t do. or shld i say i ve got no energy t do anything? my eyes were damn itchy ystd while working nd it was really so itchy until i really cnt tahan nd i went t e toilet nd took out my lashes. e transparent or shld i say yellowish liquid keep on flowing out from my eyelid. cb lor. i feel very xin tong la seriously. but i think serve me right also. that time dear nd me went t e doc nd e doc asked me not t put on any make ups nd wear contacts for at least 5 days nd i rmb i wore it on e 5th day alr lor. by then my eyes were still abit swollen but i didn't care anymore nd i just kept wearing make ups for almost everyday nd now my eyes become like that. now i really cnt wear any make ups nd contacts for at least 1 week alr. dear doesn't allow me t wear nd even if he does i think i won't wear also. i swear i fucking hate t step out of e hse w/o any make ups nd wearing my specs but i think i need t control nd tahan for abit now. i know e consequences if i keep wearing it or it might even b worst thn wad we think. i know i shld stop now nd let it recover fully first nd i can wear make ups like nobody business after that. haahaas. kidding. anyw superboy, pls pls bear w my very pale nd ugly face for e whole of next wk ok? i might look pale nd ugly w/o make ups nd w my specs on but i don't ve a choice now. wad matter most is that i will still smile nd laugh as often as i can because i know my smiles nd laughters is very important t u! (: i need t tc of myself nd i know u will definitely take very good care of me. (: ima gg t b so dead next week because i told jessie i want t work mon t sat nd now i ve t g t work w a very very pale face. ): i know this doesn't matter because time passes very fast nd i just g nd work nd e main purpose for me t g work is t earn money.. that's all. it doesn't really matter if i wear make ups nd contacts anot. i know i know nd i really understand. but how shld i say.. i will get very moody nd upset whenever i think of i need t g t work w a 'naked' face e next day. wo hao xiang jiu shi guo bu liao wo zi ji xin li zhe guan. i know dear won't mind because he just wants my eyes t recover but i will still feel unhappy. i really don't know wad t do. i just hope that my eyes will recover asap nd things can g back t normal soon so that i won't feel that moody nd dear don't ve t suffer because of my attitude nd temper. just now i met him after work nd my mood was so down. he bought me ginseng tea nd i must say that it really taste awful, right darling? haas. but i will still drink it because darling bought it nd i know ta shi wei le wo hao. (: thank you my dear boy. he didn't fa pi qi even thou my attitude sucks t e max due t my eyes nd hands. he actually wanted t acc me t e taxi stand nd wait for cab but i was so ti ki nd dear ve t give it t me. sorry my dear. i know u gave in nd ren wo. i can c. i appreciate it nd xin ku ni ler! ): i know u don't feel good too seeing my eyes nd hands like that but pls don't blame urself because i know u alr did wad u can like stopping me from wearing make ups nd contacts nd reminding me t apply e cream for my eyes nd hands daily w/o fail. i still rmb that day i texted u in e afternoon nd told u that my hands were in a very bad condition because e skin kept tearing nd u came down t hotel in e night just t pass me e cream for my hand.. i will always rmb.. (: it's my fault because i never make good effort t tc of myself. never ever blame urself agn k? (: ONCE AGAIN, HAPPY ONE MONTH ANNIVERSARY SUPERBOY! :DD love doesn't make e world g round; love is wad makes e ride worthwhile.
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