i'm at my hse now. my face feels so sticky. mayb i shld g nd get a super good foundation soon? (; hehehehs. anyw, just now i went down t darling's work place nd look for him. we had a good lunch together. i don't know how t explain this feeling but it just feels good. although i need t travel down but i think he is worth my time, don't he? ((: ystd i didn't went down due t another job i was having. e job was alright. just some baking nd cashier work but i don't like it. i don't like e feeling i was having inside me while i was working. i miss darling so much u know.. nd i blame myself for not being able t g down nd meet him for lunch ystd. gg down tday makes me feel so good. do u understand wad ima trying t say? mayb u can't. this feeling is deep inside me so others can't really feel it. whatever it is, as long as i know how i'm feeling i think that is more thn enuff alr. tmr i'm working at 6pm. before that i will g down t look for darling thn tk straight bus from there t my work place. although e hrs is really short nd i can't really earn much but at least there is income, right? hopefully next wk will b better. give me 6pm also can as long as i ve more days t work. i'm gg t invest more in darling's tummy! haahaahaas! anyw i feel kinda stress gg back t hotel nd work tmr because it has been 1 wk since i last went there t work nd i'm afraid that tmr's in charge will give me a lousy partner nd i'm afraid that my portioning has become slower thn before. i really don't know y am i stress. i shldn't b right? just do wad ima supposed t do nd wad i can do, right? (: so i shld just relax myself nd work. jiayou jiayi! jiayou ben hou! we both jiayou together ok? we shall work hard together nd earn lots of money for shopping! heheheh. bullshit. we need t save e money la. i think i need t end here alr because ima gg t ve my dinner now.( don't worry darling. i won't forget ur share. will get u ur dinner later wen ima on my way back! :D) loves!